Do you see what I see?

I am a POAS addict!





I went to my PCP and got a blood test this morning, No way I could wait until Saturday for my beta. I will know the results either tonight or in the morning. Holy shit I think I might be pregnant!!!

Spot

I had a bit of spotting last night. I wonder could it be implantation spotting? I was 8dp2dt yesterday. Hmmm we will just have to wait and see. I really hope it was my wee one(s) snuggling in for a 9 month journey.

In other news off to get my hair cut and colored today, anything to take my mind off of the 2ww.

Symptoms? What symptoms? Other than my boobs feeling like they are trying to slowly kill me with the pain each time I move and the 2 lovely zits on my face I have no symptoms to speak of. I have been POAS here and there and still getting the nasty white glaring back at me. I am not discouraged yet though because it is only 7dp2dt or 9dpo. It is way to soon right? RIGHT??? There is still hope please tell me I am crazy for testing so soon. I really need some encouragement ladies.

the little ones

This is 2 of the 3 that they transfered.

Back to work

Today I head back into the real world and have to go to work. Trust me I would love nothing more than to spend the 2WW laying around my house doing nothing but that is not possible. I think alot about weather or not this time worked. I hope and pray it did. It all seems so different from last time. ER and ET went much better. I guess I felt last time that the ET was botched, I was very happy to see that I was having a different doctor this time. I did leave the house for a bit yesterday to take T to school and pick him up. I also stopped at the dollar tree and stocked up on HPT's. I mean really for a buck you can't go wrong. I am hoping to hold off until Monday before the peeing starts up. That would put me at 8dpo or 6dp2dt. Early I know but again for a buck why not?

Waiting

I am once again waiting. First it was waiting to meet the Re, then it was waiting for my cycle to start. Waiting for blood work, waiting for ultrasounds, waiting to trigger, waiting to do ER waiting to see if we had any embryos to transfer. Now I am in the home stretch of the biggest wait of all, the 2ww. In a few hours I will know whether or not I am pregnant. In my mind I already know the answer to the question but there is still that little bit of hope until the beta comes back. I POAS again this morning and it glared back at me with that one evil line. Pretty sure I know how this cycle is going to end but surprisingly I am handling it better than I thought I would. So what do you think will the nurse call me or my RE? I am voting for the nurse.

PUPO* aka 11dp2dt

I have not pee'd on anything in 2 days. My beta is in the morning and I am scared to death. I just know it is going to be a BFN. I am at work and seriously considering sending Lisa to Walgreen's for me. I feel the urge to POAS so bad right now. I just need to know so tomorrow I will not be so upset. UGHHHH The last day is the worst in the 2ww I swear.



*pregnant until proven otherwise( thanks to Serenity for my new favorite saying)

6dp2dt

First off good luck to Sarah who is having her transfer today. I hope it all goes smoothly for you. Now on to me, my sister is an evil evil woman. I was talking to her on the phone yesterday and she said and I quote " if the HPT's at the dollar tree are only a buck go buy a bunch and pee on one everyday." So it is all her fault that I am now peeing on something every chance I get. Yeah that's it, it is all Zephra's fault! Hee hee that will work right. I know in my heart it is to soon to see a positive but that did not stop me from testing first thing this morning. My question is how soon do you think would be the soonest I could see a result? Can you tell I am obsessing?

In other happenings my niece who lives in Florida now is up for a visit and today is the only chance I will get to see her. I will make sure to take pictures and post them soon. Oh yeah BTW my butt hurts! All of a sudden I am getting really sore after the PIO shots.

4dp2dt

So I think I have figured out how to stop obsessing about peeing on HPT's. They key is you must sleep all day. That is pretty much what I did today. I did not shower or get dressed I just dozed off and on all day. Thank god T is at an age where he is good about letting mommy rest. It helped that my BIL was home most of the day too. The hot flashes though are killing me. I can not believe how hot I get in my sleep. I told Tony that I am not buying any HPT's until Monday because if I don't have them I can not pee on them but we will see. I know it is way to early to get a positive but hey it gives me something to do. I can not even lie and say it is to see if the trigger shot is gone cause it is and I know it. I will be working the next 3 nights so that helps too. Co worker did an awesome job with the PIO shot last night. She only jabbed me with the needle twice. She got it right to the skin and got nervous. Once she did it she was fine though. Thank god cause for real I AM NOT GIVING THAT SHOT TO MYSELF! Have you seen the size of that needle? It is huge. Well that is it for me today, I just figured I should write something.

3dp2dt

For those who have no idea what my title means it says that I am 3 days post 2 day transfer. Has it really only been three days? This is going to be the longest 2 weeks of my life. I am already antsy. I guess it is a good thing I am working tonight. I need something to take my mind off of this. Two nights in a row now I have woken up in a pool of sweat. The first night DH thought I had wet the bed I was so sweaty. I know it is probably the estrace or the PIO shots doing it to me but boy it is annoying. I am already hot natured as it is, I don't really need something to make me sweat more. I am spotting a bit here and there not a lot and it is just pink. From what I understand this is totally normal. The trigger shot is completely out of my system now amazingly enough. So when I do finally POAS if it is positive I have a very good shot of it being right. I am going to try my best to hold out until Monday the 12th before I take a HPT but we will see. It should be interesting tonight at work, one of my coworkers is giving me my PIO shot in the butt. I tell ya fun times.