So where to start? Well things are good at work, I am learning more and more everyday about the accounting and sales stuff. I just did my first power point presentation and I think it was really good. Don't get me wrong I still find time to go on Facebook and check mt Farmville everyday but I get my work done first.

My oldest sister recently got in contact with Zephra and I on Facebook. It was a bit of a shock but in a good way. She is 9 years older than me and I think I look like her. I am slowly learning about her and trying to forge a relationship with her. It is not the instant connection I felt with Zephra but I think that is due to the fact that I have more memories of Zephra than Patty.

The kids are awesome! Jayden tries my nerves most everyday, LOL. I swear he is payback for everything I did growing up. We are still trying to get him to sleep in his own bed, but that is for another post. Terrell is getting so big, he has a friend the same age who lives down the street and they are together all the time. I thought I had a few more years before he abandoned me for his friends. It is amazing to watch him grow and bloom into a young man.

As for the DH things are ok. Not as bad as they once were but not as good as I wish they were.  I guess we are just a work in progress.

More Random stuff

Some much random shit is floating around in my head so I thought what the heck write a blog post. I know how much my one or two readers enjoy reading the randomness that rattles around in my almost empty brain. So here for your reading enjoyment bullets.

• Terrell is loving 1st grade so far
• Jayden is now know as the destroyer
• Jayden has figured out how to take those little plastic outlet covers out of the outlets
• He can also turn the doorknob to the basement door
• Thank god we have a chain lock on the door
• Of course that means if you are down there and someone is upstairs with him they have to lock you in the basement
• So glad we child proofed the house
• Jayden also fell down the front stairs of the house, yes the concrete stairs, I swear I was right there the little guy is quick!
• Terrell is really starting to grow up right before my eyes
• It is making me sad
• This morning when dropping him off at school he kissed me and gave me a hug then said bye Mom see you tomorrow
• I miss my boy
• I HATE HATE HATE working nights
• My sister is close to possibly making her first home sale
• I am so proud of her
• My sister in law is coming to visit in November
• AGAIN
• she was just here in May
• and before that in September
• This is the most she has ever visited
• I need to go check my farm on facebook now so that is all
  

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My sister did an online search for our mother the other day while under the influence of ambien. Without going into the whole sordid back story my mother left when I was 6 and Sis was 2 in fact I may have still been 5. She left us without a backward glance and it was many years and a search using her social security # before I had contact with her again. At that point I was the "bad child" and I believe not wanted in either household, so I ran away and kept running time after time. I tried drugs, I sold my body, I had a child I gave up for adoption, I was beaten by my step mother badly. I was raised by alcholics. Mothers are supposed to care for and protect their children, mine didn't. She is a coward and a bitch. I feel I need to tell her this, So I think at some point this weekend I will sit down and tell her how my life was hell for many years. I believe alot of it started when she turned her back on her children one day in 1976 and it got worse for many many years but I also want her to know that in spite of that I made something of my self and I am a better mother than she could have ever hoped to be because of the crap and bullshit I have waded through my whole life. The only thing I want or need from her is a complete medical history after that she is dead to me, hell right now she is dead to me for the most part.

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First off good luck to Sarah who is having her transfer today. I hope it all goes smoothly for you. Now on to me, my sister is an evil evil woman. I was talking to her on the phone yesterday and she said and I quote " if the HPT's at the dollar tree are only a buck go buy a bunch and pee on one everyday." So it is all her fault that I am now peeing on something every chance I get. Yeah that's it, it is all Zephra's fault! Hee hee that will work right. I know in my heart it is to soon to see a positive but that did not stop me from testing first thing this morning. My question is how soon do you think would be the soonest I could see a result? Can you tell I am obsessing?

In other happenings my niece who lives in Florida now is up for a visit and today is the only chance I will get to see her. I will make sure to take pictures and post them soon. Oh yeah BTW my butt hurts! All of a sudden I am getting really sore after the PIO shots.