Saturday, June 14, 2008

Sinking

I have the blues, the just had a baby blues. I am on Zoloft and have been since his birth but I can tell they are starting to hit. Of course the not sleeping enough, having a needy 5 year old and a husband who works at 4am isn't helping. I kinda feel like I am slowly drowning. I am treading hard to keep my head above water. I think I need to up my dose of medication. I feel like I am being pulled in so many directions at once. Terrell needs me to do stuff with him, and I want to but every freaking time you put Jayden down he cries. I know it is ok for him to cry a little but he is only 3 weeks old and I feel like I need to not let him cry much. Tony is trying to help but he works all day, more than 40 hours a week and he needs down time too. Tell me again this will get better.

6 comments:

Zephra said...

it does. You need a friend to come by and give you a break...how bout sending me a plane ticket.

Milenka said...

*hugs* Hang in there, Valerie. It has to get better, right? The main thing is that you recognize that you need the meds and are getting those to help because so many women try to just tough it out and sink. You can do this!

nancy said...

Having the 2nd baby was the hardest thing I've ever done.

What helped me get through it was the advice of my pediatrician...

"It will be 50% better next month".

It always was.

Anonymous said...

I've just stumbled upon your blog, only read this latest posting...but wanted to add a comment so you know you are not alone with this...

IT WILL GET BETTER

hugs from another mum struggling

Jenn in Australia

Jenn said...

It does get better, really it does. If you think that you need your prescription upped, call your doc ASAP! If you can get a friend or family member to come by and give you a hand, let them. ((HUGS)) I've been where you are, and its ok to ask for help. I've always said that its harder to go from 1 to 2 children than it is from 2 to 3 or more!

Delenn said...

As someone who is dealing with PPD too--I can tell you, it definately gets better. If you need someone, shoot me an e-mail.