Saturday, June 14, 2008
I have the blues, the just had a baby blues. I am on Zoloft and have been since his birth but I can tell they are starting to hit. Of course the not sleeping enough, having a needy 5 year old and a husband who works at 4am isn't helping. I kinda feel like I am slowly drowning. I am treading hard to keep my head above water. I think I need to up my dose of medication. I feel like I am being pulled in so many directions at once. Terrell needs me to do stuff with him, and I want to but every freaking time you put Jayden down he cries. I know it is ok for him to cry a little but he is only 3 weeks old and I feel like I need to not let him cry much. Tony is trying to help but he works all day, more than 40 hours a week and he needs down time too. Tell me again this will get better.