I know for me dealing with secondary infertility has been hard. I can only imagine how hard primary infertility is for others. I have been pretty open with everyone in my life about our struggle to give T a sibling. Everyone except my mother in law. When we were trying to get pregnant with Terrell my FIL and SIL both knew but we kept the news from Tony's mom. We have kept the news of our IVF attempt from her too. My in laws are coming to visit in August. What if we need to cycle while they are here? What if Tony is shooting me in the ass with progesterone? I really feel it is my husbands place to tell his mom what is going on but if she asks me I will not lie. When we got pregnant with T I told her and her reaction was well if that is what you want. She has also said several times that we don't need anymore kids. With that said why do people feel the need to tell me if I just relax I will get pregnant. It is the same person over and over again. Apparently she can not grasp that my tubes are blocked and ain't no sperm getting in there. I calmly explain to her over and over that I will never get pregnant without the help of a doctor and lab but I think it just doesn't sink in.
When I got pregnant with Terrell I felt so blessed. I really felt like god was giving me a second chance to be a mom. You see I had a baby when I was 15. It was a little boy I named Brian. He is now 21 years old. Terrell was only my 3rd pregnancy in my life. The second one was a miscarriage. To me it just seems like a really long time with no scares about being pregnant. I wonder sometimes if this is it for me. I wonder if we will ever have another child and I wonder if Tony would really deep down in his heart ever regret not having more kids. I want another baby but at the same time if I did not have another one I think I would be ok. I know it would take time to come to grip with that reality though. How do you know when you are truly done trying?