The Talk

Tony and I had a long talk last night, I feel like he finally listened to me. Who knew Chuck E. Cheese is a place for a real heart to heart? I told him that I am unhappy here but that alot of it was things that I am not getting. For instance I need to feel like my feelings matter, I need affection, I need him to show me that he loves me because just to be honest I am not feeling it. I chatted with Shannon alot yesterday as well as my sister. They both really helped me to see things a little clearer. To me right now divorce is not an option because Tony would never agree for me to move with Terrell out of state, the courts here really frown on this as well plus T loves his daddy so much it would break his heart. So if I am stuck here anyway we are going to try and make some changes to our marriage. We will go to counseling, we will try and listen more and Tony says he will try to remember the things I need. I told him that I am so unhappy that I am ready to leave and I think that shook him, I know it shook me. So I guess what I am saying is I am fighting for my marriage. If you are a prayerful kind of person could you please pray for us?