Marriage

My sister suggested that I blog about my feelings about my marriage but do it as an outsider looking in. This is alot harder than I thought it would be, how do I look in without clouding it with my issues? I am pretty sure I still love my husband and think I might be having a bit of the 7 year itch. As my sister said I need to figure out how to scratch it. I know I can be a bitch and I am hard on him sometimes. I know I am not happy but I wonder is he happy? Does he ever look at me and just think to himself I would be better off without her? I know that we don't really communicate well with each other. We really have to work on that, we can both be talking but neither one of us gets it. How did we get to this point? I mean his parents have a good marriage from what I can see but my parents are all fucked up. My Dad has been married 3 times and none of them have been healthy relationships. This is what I learned from so I know I am all messed up in the head when it comes to marriage. Not to mention my past, I will just say this is the longest and healthiest relationship I have had to date in my life. Isn't that sad? I really just need to figure out where I am in my life and then try to work on my marriage. I really think I am going to look into counseling for me and/or us. We need help!