What Happened

Thank you for all the nice comments, it is good to feel loved. Now to what happened here Sunday night. Basically we had a huge fight that ended in Tony sleeping elsewhere and me telling him I was filing for legal seperation. It was a long dirty fight where I said some things that I am sure hurt alot, I was nasty and I know it. He was drunk and being an asshole, the worst part Terrell was awake and heard the whole thing. This is the part that worries me, he left and it did not phase me at all. I set my alarm for work and went to bed with T. I got up dropped T at the sitters and calmly told him that if Tony picked him up to please call me. I wasn't upset, I never cried and I wasn't worried about where he was, that scares me. That tells me my feelings are not there like they should be. Things are slightly patched up, I am still not wearing my wedding ring but we are speaking barely. Counseling can't come soon enough. I am feeling very trapped in my marriage and it sucks. I am sorry most of my posts have been downers lately hopefully better times are ahead of me.